bl*ss v3.0

yo! it's me again..who else lar?

notice me new tagboard? yeah, write watever you want there. show me that u have been here, read my crap and left. surprise me :)

been checking me emails and etc etc... another slow morning, finished washing those chickens, 40 birds altogether. oh man, the smell. I cant get it off my hands! wash with soap liao still like that..ewww~

anyway, yang, good luck in ur test! I know you can do it! and happy burfday kok beng!

i noticed that i am still in denial...
still keep wishing that yang wud come back here.... cant bring myself to delete parts of him that are still here. aiseh~

I'm so busy that i cant think straight. Why do i put myself into all this? Am i crazy? or is it this thing in me acting up.... the need to be needed. I cant say no. I know I'm making myself too busy. Ask anyone who is close to me and they will gladly agree with you. 5 projects in one go. it's a wonder im still in one piece. I wudnt be able to go on without support from Yang. unfortunately he also seems to be unhappy about what im getting myself in. doesnt really support me anymore. *sob* that's what i feel lar. If it werent for my good listener, Ian, i think i will break down liao. I've disappointed yang too many times. feel guilty to him, to myself, to the people im suppose to help and to my parents. and the only person i can blame is myself...

So I will be leaving for UTM on a seminar on 29th oct midnight. before that got meet up for preparation of that event on 27 to the 29th itself. will be back around 7th november earliest i think. I'm raring to go. But at the back of my mind is a jumble of all the work i have to do. my commitments are all divided to teeny tiny bits that i cant even sleep peacefully. even my entry tells how messed up i am now. im talking random thoughts. shit. holiday ends on 21st nov. i need a longer one!!!

today was a pretty easy day. only becos i was procrastinating away. didnt wanna do anything. tomolo mom wants me to wake up and go to temple to help them wash chickens from 830 am to 1100am. after that i wanna go out shopping for my outfit for the costume party during the seminar as well as a 60/70s outfit for a retro night party at the seminar as well. yang told me to be a pumpkin. hahahha....

gimme moral support please..... i'm feeling like an overstretched rubber band. pull more and i will break, let go and i will fly to dunno where....

its been ages since i've seen evelyn...come to think of it, im very bad when it comes to keeping in touch with all my ol pals. 'busy' is just an excuse. anyway, will try to remedy that....TRY..ehehhehe..most of the time nothing come out of my 'try'

my encounter with Chew: am writing this down cos i cant remember everything he's telling me so that i can tell yang.. old liao, watodo. brain cells at this point begin to die. ahhh! so here are some of the dialog bits, minus what i say lar

that day i went for a paint ball war game at leeds...damn syiok. its organised by the malaysian singaporian society here...so we have like very big war

i've also join the salsa classes. quite syiok with all the funny musics

got suki tahi anjing jantan coconut fish and chips here

got new phone: sony ericsson s700i.. its 150 pounds...but i get to pay half price for my bills for 6 months

i ask: so wat do u do during free times?
he answer: wow... alot of things.... clubbing,bar crawling, disco, fighting, drinking, laundry, dan lain lain lagi. they have parties everywhere everyday... this whole city is crazy
i'm at the H floor...i do the fightings at the L floor with the ppl there....we form a mini fight club.
really... i'm not joking.... we actually fight around the halls....wresting and stuff. We got ppl from all around the world jumpin on each other....and the winner gets vodca. but of couse i'm not that siow to do that everyday.... sometimes i just buy some happy juice and lepak at friends room talkin crap. yeah yeah...i use my aikido skills....hehe...so i'm better at wrestling...
happy juice means anything with alcohol.... i'm always happy when i got alcohol in my system....quite funny actually when ppl are drunk. So normally at night everyone becomes damn friendly even to total strangers. cocktails here is expensive.... cidar is damn cheap here... 1pound for 3 litres. hehe...i think i got drinkers genes. the other day me and this kazekstan guy drank 3 litre of cidar in one night... and we didn't notice it until the bottle its empty.

his answer to what do u usually drink?: i drink a pint of beer...then follow by whiskey coke

me: every nite u drink ar??
him: er... maybe 4 times a week... but i seldom drink until i'm drunk...i drink just to get into the happy atmosphere. happy juice....i like it~

him: tell yang that Full Metal Alchemist story ends already...
hehe... if he knows here sure bengang wan... cos i can download anime here already. oh yeah.... actually i'm not supposed to be able to use internet in my room but i somehow detect another wireless connection at my accomodation...so lantak lar

ah, now i know i didnt forget anything...yang..read ar..hehhe

how to make things right i oso dunno.....
im not a guy who reads html or know how to republish this blog -_-
up to u i guess, it's your blog right? i cant do much now, u need to learn to live without me,
maybe one day i'll be gone thanks to 2nd hand smoke by jay and mocha...im afraid u might
feel really upset if things doesnt go well for me, haih....
choices made cant be turned back, its my mistake in my life and will always stay that way,
nothing esle can change the past but we can always correct ourself for the future.
i dont think u will read this today even, but i feel so damn kau stressed out, and pissed for
no reason. haih.

another day goes by...

It looks like yang is never coming back here..... oh well, u must always go with the flow and change with the changes.

I'm at the moment at home, enjoying the liberty of sitting in front of the computer. something i dont get to do when im in college. (why in the world they call our dormitries colleges?? its so confusing for outsiders) im also enjoying hot water and the fact that there IS water. if im in college, everyday have to walk down 2 floors for lovely-high-pressure-awakening-cold water. actually i can just go down one floor, but i prefer one floor lower cos of the water pressure. nothing like a long enuff (not too long, other people waiting, hehe) shower in the morning to kick start ur day. i know it should be breakfast that kicks start it, but im one of those people that dont eat breakfast. and they say its the most important meal in a day. oh well, must be why i dont put on weight even if i want to. I also get to walk around barefooted and in my nightie the whole day. Hah! So nice to be home. Things like these make u realise how much u take things n what u have for granted...*sigh*..that brings me to a sad thought.

I know im taking things for granted but i dont do anything abouti t. i just continue complaining and making it seem im in such a bad condition when i shud be so grateful. i have a family, a loving boyfriend, caring friends around me, an education, sufficient money to go out and enjoy myself, freedom (slightly lar..)

well, here is where i say thanks. thanks to everyone and everythng that made me who i am and where i am and how i am today. why isnt this making me feel better eh? here i go again...

FUCK
.......one word says it all.

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bye kids

haisyo, wish i was as free as u man. practically going to the library everyday lar u! I think i wont be checking the emails and stuff so often as i would want to so if you got any urgent things to tell me, dont put em up here lar. i would probably read it at the next week and by that time dunno what happens liao. Today im so sick of studying! so came to the library with sharon to check my emails and stuff. aisyo, berlambak betul my email. and the work to do ! AHHHH! and finals is now!! ahhh!!! i really hope i dont screw up my sem man. and this senior is still asking me to do things during this week (suppose to give her a oral report by tomorrow and i havent done a thing. how lar to do anyting when everyone is not around or busy studying so hard to find them.) by the way yang, dun lar every time sign off say "bye kids"..kinda annoys me. hmm....try not to 'curse' here also.... thanks yah.

hahhaha, im free and gonna go visit hui ling now!!! friday is the best day for me. tonight everyone go jayson's house at bukit tinggi klang, he's birthday party so bring more girls ya? :P dowan talk much, just wanna belah fast enough be4 anything happens... ciao kids~

puki lanciau, the stupid lecturer gave us the wrong formula, making my report damn kau super duper ultra hard to complete, and mocha wants to go subang parade tonight, dunno i can make it home in time or not. mocha's leaving next week everyone, so kick him in the arse b4 he goes away.. today i went to klcc and had lunch w a little girl named mee,bihun,kuey teow,lo see fun-san :P ate A&W, and she ate a damn plain hotdog that is so lame and uncooked. so kesian la the hotdog, and she said she had alot (guess she never goes to buffet wan) i think she'll pengsan seeing me eat at buffet at my rate, eating 200% faster than her and spatim :P haih haih, i gotta go type my lame report for a guy named wendy to copy it from me, but im not gonna lend him my report, just the results, he gotta learn english man, if not kena kongket jadi mangkuk ayun.bb kids~

another experiment to type -_- this is so damn kau dull. actually i dont know how to do it, just know what im supposed to do only. haih... the current computer im using now sucks. the monitor changes from blue to white randomly, so my eyes kinda hurt abit.tommorow my classes wont start till 2, so im FREE, at least wat i think la, the LAN teacher went to penang or something so some LAN seminar so our 3 hours class was canceled, so sad huh? :P arr, wat esle ar? i really dont have anything nice to talk about liao, most of the stuff you all should know liao, if anyone reads this page that is -_- well, at least it's killing my time right? anyway, i gotta go type my report, bb.

hui ling? anyone? im so bored again, but i should be typing my other experiment now, but no due till next week and i havnt have any results. stupid swinging experiment la... dunno la. yesterday me, ching n mocha went to subang parade to 'shop'. he bought a jacket and a shirt at reject shop, then we met up wit jayson, he's been in subang like 24 7 nowdays liao due to the cousin syndrome. wonders of the world huh? mocha just smsed me, he's hand ok liao, just removed the cast, so he should be leaving to ukrane in about 2 weeks.... sad huh? anything esle i dunno la... tonite got aikido, so should be damn kau tired... nothing esle liao kua.. bb

dont worry, yang can find lotsa way to get stuff wan, so no sweat. i got classes alot today, so cant chat, mon full day. mi-san, if u are reading this, this thursday morning i free till 2pm or alternativly, friday my class till 11pm onli, so u go figure.. bye kids

aiyo..sorry ar yang...this useless girlfriend of yours....
dunno how to help..sorry didnt tell u earlier >_< *sob* now u dun haf da book

haih, hate fridays, i have 4 and 1/2hours to spare from 11am onwards -_- this is so damn lame to stay here and do nothing, i feel so bored. maybe i should finish up my experiment about pendulum now, later only la, kinda bored and want to sleep actually, anyone offering any houses to me to stay? *blink* *blink* 4.5 HOURS u know, damn kau sien. i just finished chemistry class, and today i learn about atom numbers and the mass numbers, so fun~* btw, hui ling, i really need that book, so buy ya? i feel so bad sharing with an indonesion who speaks slow english and lotsa hokkien, lucky im a hokkien lang, not canton or mandarin nor hakka ^^ if i stop typing this, i need to type other stuffs, dowan la, so need to keep typing for the sake of my stupid work. hui ling, takecare of your health ya? drink LOTSA water and try to sleep more, cut down on activities and stuff la, good for health. anyway, i guess i need to go do my report cos the indonesian doesnt know how to make one, and want me to borrow him mine. kambing korban menjadi mangsa kongket seluruh dunia :P anyway, bb.